My apologies. Merci. I know it has been long. I know I’m sorry. I know you’ll wonder but honestly, there is no explanation. I just let my mind wander off long enough to forget. Not you, but everything. Including you. It wasn’t planned. My reverie should have ended sooner. I know. It was impromptu though. It wasn’t my fault but still I know I have to pay some price. To suffer. The same way you have. Except you look happy. You’re radiant and glowing and ecstatic. I miss this you but I understand I have no right. Still, I just need to know. Is this all a lie? If not, I applaud you. You know how to convince a wanderer you don’t care and have them question whether you ever did. If yes, it is okay to move on flower. It is okay to still act hurt even when you aren’t. I don’t know why. I would never question you and I will still pay the price. In whatever way the universe deems fit. Because….
You don’t care enough to anymore or if you do, you’re scared of being hurt. Again. I will let the wind carry me once more. To wander wherever. At least I’ve seen you again. Goodbye.
Ramblings of a sane woman 